tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9041244169058325305.post8807196266232132353..comments2022-11-13T21:43:01.707+08:00Comments on Just a Touch of Human: Brittanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01929517452205383357noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9041244169058325305.post-23059130775306203472011-05-02T17:26:43.192+08:002011-05-02T17:26:43.192+08:00Girl, I'm scared... I'm scared for you.
I...Girl, I'm scared... I'm scared for you. <br />I don't know what depression feels like, as you know most of my blog is just shit blabber about all the things you'd much rather feel, and all I can say is that I know how much my stuff hurts me, so yours... I can't even imagine. <br />Don't kill yourself Brittany, you're still so young, you have your entire life ahead of you. god, I know- telling you this is probably just annoying, I'm sure you've heard it all before. <br />I bet you have. But please keep fighting. <br />Life isn't easy, or painless, or free. it's the opposite, it's horrifying and painful and... trapped. Pain is a whore, it's bullshit- sometimes you have to understand that the thing keeping you where you are... is you. now, please, plese don't take this the wrong way- but it's you, you have the power, the strength to get out of these, to free yourself. you can tell yourself that it's all these other things causing your pain, but girl it's you- and only you can stop it, only you know why. Sometimes we stay submerged in our pain because we know it gets people to look- and i am NOT at all saying you're an attention seeker, and so what if i was? every person needs attention, and maybe thats it- mmaybe you've always just wanted someone to SEE YOU, to look and say "she isn't alright". and it's gone on for so long because maybe people were so self submerged that they never noticed, maybe now you're just waiting- but because its lasted so long, you don't have control anymore, it's always there now, but you can fix it. eh, i just read over the whole thing and realised i sounded like a total know it all. i don't think i know everything, i guess i'm just trying to help. <br />anyhow, what i'm saying beautiful, is that maybe you need to decide, hey- fuck the pain- fuck the people hurting me- fuck the people who don't care- i'm getting out of this, and do it. make yourself do it. make yourself find something to live for everyday, anything to live for! I know it isn't as easy as I'm making it sound. but find SOMETHING!! you want to see yourself meeting your faviourite celebrity, or feel what its like to be in love, or see what your first baby will look like- maybe you want to know what you're going to look like when you get older, or what your job will be. maybe you're going to want to sit on a porch with your husband, your grandchildren running around playing. maybe you want to wait for the new harry potter, or wait to see what the next "twilight" will be. <br />or maybe, maybe you want to feel happy, yeah. happy. <br />fight for that, wait for that, fuck everything else.. for that. <br />for happy. <br />stay- so you get the chance to be happy. <br />Please don't take anything I've said the wrong way. <br />but please... stay. <br />if you want someone just to bag your shit on, i'll always be right there. i promise. <br />keep your head heald high. xLittle.phttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10502673328379528468noreply@blogger.com